Alright so it has been at least a week away from Singapore and surviving in China.

Wait, let me rephrase that last part, not surviving, but living in China. Seriously, all you need is just to earn about $5k SGD a month and you come over here and I dare say you can afford a car every month. Things here compared to Singapore is ridiculously cheap. I can live on $4SGD a day. Too bad I'm only have a few hundreds for my monthly allowance. Really good hair cuts cost only $5SGD, really damn good MEAL cost less than $3SGD, like 4 dumplings for $0.20! Huh?! The cab here is screwed up though, you have to quote the price first before you board the transportation. Oh speaking of transportation, the bus service here cost MAXIMUM $0.20 for single deck buses, $0.40 for double deck buses, and go as far as you want. They have this calling thing that allows you to call your friends non-stop unlimited call time for free. Puppies are sold at $20SGD each on the street. Bills here maximum $100SGD if you use like crazy, and that's for 6 people. Oh, arcade here is like a Legal Gambling Den for typical kids like you and me. They not only have game machines that really lets you play normal games, but also machines where by it's pretty much like 4D, guess the icon, if it appears, you get tons of coins.

Ok, so that was like the price of living in China. Now, the price you pay when you want to do internship here, slog your ass off babe. I can't believe I'm saying this but my classmates and I have Over-Timed quite a few times already. I fear my worse has yet to come. Apart from that though, my Chinese colleagues are really nice people. So nice that I simply had to buy chocolates for everyone. Quite funny though these people. First few days of work I'm told that I have to converse with them in English. So they reluctantly followed suite. After a few days, I'm the one speaking Chinese. I'm dead. Be prepared for China Clement, Singapore!

What else... Hmm, shopping is dirt cheap where nice shoes go as low as $20SGD... I haven't find any nice shirt though. But I just bough a bloody nice leather jacket that cost about $50SGD. It's quality jacket so $50SGD for it is simply cheap, where the same kind of quality back at Singapore can go up to $100+SGD.

Alright I'm tired of internet for now. Seriously, it was nice to live without internet for the past week. Now that internet is up, things will be slightly different... Oh well...

Let me know what you guys want and I'll buy back (: Facebook message, MSN, Xanga, these 3, I can access thanks to Luqman (HotSpotShield.com babe).

P.S. Those $20SGD puppies are very cute!

It has been a while since I had last blogged. And normally, I'll blog only when I feel that it really affects my life. So this is my perception of what I notice about people around me.

Ryan, Cheske, Ben, and I were sitting down at MacDonald's, talking about people around us.

My first clubbing experience

Before I share what we talked about, I'd like to say that I am no longer a club virgin, finally. My first experience was... rather interesting. At first everything was fun and all, until the point where this fight broke out and the place was closed. Fuck that, I haven't used my one more free drink coupon. No idea what the hell sparked off this fight, but we ended the night earlier than what I had expected. Well, at least I know that I have good friends who are willing to just put aside everything else and accompany me to my first clubbing experience.

Thank you, Ben, Cheske, and especially my damn fucking good bro, Ryan (: Luqman, if you were there I would put your name beside Ryan's hahahaha. I had a good time, really (: Hell, I got invited by girls to dance with them! That's pretty much a good first time experience huh!

People do change...

Now back to the main purpose of this; People do change, no matter if it's for the better or the worse, it's a norm in life.

No matter where we come from, we tend to change to... fit in. I still remember, back in Secondary 3, when all of us were still innocent lads. I'd hang out with my this group of friends and slowly get influenced by them and do the same activity as them. Then in Secondary 4, I decided to mix with another group, a very very awesome group, that consists of Luqman, Ryan, Jia Lin, Eezzat, Nevin, and many others. Of course, my closest are Ryan and Luqman. Back then, this awesome group was just all about having innocent fun and just playing all out. More of HDB hide and seek, running around in the carpark, going Bedok to indulge in LAN gaming, eating at MacDonald's near our school... So many things that we all do without worries.

Then we grow up. We mix with even more people, where I met Cheske and Ben of course. All sorts of people start to appear in front of me. People who have a very good and fortunate life, people who waste their life on stupid things like illegal stuff, people who just love meeting more people, even popular people in Singapore, people who struggle to make ends meet and so many more. This really made me see the world, and made me realized that life isn't just about play or slacking outside, but also to know what I want in future, how I can repay people I love dearly, how to cherish these lovely people and so much more.

Now, things are different. Many of us mature in terms of thinking. Most of us at least have a direction of what kind of person we want to be in future, or what kind of goals we want to achieve, or what kind of future we want to live in, etc. Of course, we're still young and active, age of about 19-20ish, so some of us still likes to, not play, but, have a healthy social life (:

As for me, well... I want secure a good, comfortable life for my future. I want to achieve many things in life that will make my friends, especially Ryan and Luqman, to be proud to have a friend like me, my family proud to have a kin like me, my future family proud to have a dad/husband like me.

Some told me that I'm still young and I should cherish my youth with going out, having fun, etc. I understand that they care for me, but I do not wish to stay in my comfort zone anymore. It's the reason that I'm young that I should start securing a good future for myself, the kind of life that I wish to have. Of course, my social life is important and I will never stop hanging out with my friends. Being able to see my friends brings me joy, a joy that one day if I pass away, I can never have.

Ryan and Luqman

I can never imagine life without the both of you. The closest friends that I ever have. Thank you for being there for me (:

I wish that I have tons of money so that I can buy all of us everything we want, to be able to enjoy together. Honestly, I do not want to be left out the fun that you both have, or even leave both of you out the fun I have. And Luqman, if you're reading this and thinks it's gay, Fuck you lol. I'm perfectly straight and I'd get a nice girlfriend or wife and prove it to you. Hahahaha.

I will always love you both.

Alright I'll say everything now.

Hear one side of the story and you'll be biased. Listening to both sides will make you think logically.

I find it ridiculous when people judge one another just by one side of the story. I understand that though, cause that's human nature. All I can say, I'm glad that Shazlin understood what I want in life for now. I want money. That's it. Simple as that. And if I want something I will go all out for it. I will not allow anything to drag me down.
 
Yes, I might sound like a jerk doing this. But what if I continued the relationship and dread being with her. And what if because of a fucked up relationship that I'll lead a fucked up life surviving on bread and water. You need two hands to clap. If she loves me but I don't feel the same for her, there's no point continuing.

And if you think it was easy giving up on this relationship, fuck off.

I ever thought before, over the past few relationships, whether it's mine or hers, did they fail because of the opposite party? Or is it just you. I wouldn't be biased in anyway.

I just want to have a good life for my future family. Look at your own parents and think about it, if it weren't for them, would you still be here? Don't you feel guilty if you don't give them a good life? If you don't feel like this, then what about the family you will have next time? You want your kids to go through what you've been through? I don't respect people who don't respect their parents or vice versa. What I want now is to do my dad and mum proud.